talents: making myself seem cool over the internet
"People always promise
that you will eventually recover completely,
but I am not so sure.
I don’t think there will ever be a day
when I don’t taste my weight,
or find myself painfully aware of how
every inch of my body moves.
I will always question my worth
and what I deserve,
and I will always
stop a step shy of punishing myself.
My fingers will always tremble
at the mention of sickness,
and I will always secretly envy
But I will never return.
It’s the difference between fueling the fire
or stepping back
and just watching it burn."